Three years.
Three years clean!!
And then..........three days ago happened.

This past Monday during my session I told my t I was having the thoughts again. He said 'Which ones, the cutting thoughts or the suicide thoughts'. Both, I told him. And so we discussed the suicide thoughts.
I see him again tomorrow. How on earth am I gunna tell him that I have cut since last seeing him? That I slipped up after working SO hard to heal. That I failed and still haven't forgiven myself three days later.
I'm the world's worst liar, so that's out of the question. He needs to know how bad I'm really doing......but, he's gunna be SO disappointed. I hate having people worry about me.
How am I gunna tell him??