You are
certainly not alone, my dear! I feel the exact same way. I was also sexually abused as a kid. Sex scares me. Even seeing sex on tv gives me hypervigilance. It's horrible.
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Yes. Jesus is the reason I am still alive today.
Diagnoses:
MDD, BPD, PTSD, OCD, AN-BP
(I don't define myself by my personal alphabet up there, but I put it there so that maybe somebody won't feel so alone

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