Hi, babygirl123456, and welcome to Psych Central! I'm not sure why you want him back, but a couple of things come to mind: 1) You are not happy with your current boyfriend and are comparing him with this former boyfriend, remembering the goof things about him and/or 2) As you say, you are feeling guilty about hurting him, and you want to make it up to him.

That said, I'm sure you are sad he got hurt when you broke up with him, but it sounds like you had a good reason to do it. You were not ready for marriage or even such an intense relationship. You are young, and you do have time to keep searching for the right guy. It would not have been fair to him or to you if you had forced yourself to stay in a relationship you felt smothered by.