Hey Lifeiswonderful,
I am happy that you have been so engaged in this search for advice. I think you gotta pat yourself on the back for seeking out advice - even if you do the opposite to what the advice entails.
I don't have any major drug addictions myself, so my experience in that arena is somewhat limited. I don't judge addicts at all. I feel a deep and profound sympathy for them... I feel like I was cursed in having an alcoholic father who abused us - but I also see the blessing in that it allowed me to steer clear of addictions. (Well - I still got a video game addiction if that counts) But seeing how much he has changed over the years - getting sober, remarried, happy once again. It is proof enough to me that addicts have the ability to truly change, just like anyone else.
So as of now - do you think you're leaning more towards one side of the fence than the other? I really do want to hear how things go. I think it's good that you have us as a support if things don't go as planned as well!
Look after yourself!
Thanks,
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