Calista, NO you're NOT disgusting!!!!! It was the only/best way you knew how to handle the situation at the time, right? And you're still in pain, but we're right here for you.
And as for the people accusing you of things, well they are really not worth your time or attention. What do they know???!!!
You're way better than their comments, just remember that!!
And if you want to talk more..............
Alison