Each new day brings the possibility of better things. Holding on until that happens is truely hard. You are very brave for hanging in there. Have you been able to see a psychiatrist? or therapist? If no, you might consider it. Seek help. Please don't take the permanant way out.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha