I would know the way I was acting was irrational but I was powerless to stop myself.
This exactly!!!!!! I suppose if I was "normal" I'd have more control over that (and definitely on the meds I do have more control) so I guess that's another way I can think about it to decide if I'm acting poorly or if it's due to something more beyond my control, like the bi-polar.

My friend is an addictions counselor with a special focus on bi-polar. I don't see her often but this fall I did and the first thing she said when I told her how my life was going was - I think you're bi-polar and I think your hypo-manic phases align directly with your increased eating disorder behaviors. So I definitely think there's a connection. It's an addiction just like alcohol or drugs and obviously there's a link there. Not a causation link, but definitely a correlation, in my opinion at least