Well, first question is to me - are you supporting yourself or reliant on their insurance package or however it works over there (confuses me)?

Second point (not really a question)... it's irrelevant what they believe, it's about getting help if you actively think you need it.

As for your initial post... it's a tricky issue. I want to get better... I despise what I see as weakness in myself due to the mh issues I'm facing. I worry as to if at times I'm self-perpetuating things... but when it hits hard, it bewildering, dreamlike and scary as hell so I put a scratch through that worry. I am seeing a T, I am on meds... I know it's going to be a long road, one that I've stumbled and fell a number of times... but I have hope that there will be a time I'll look back on the now and be glad it's no longer the case.