Hi folks.

I do know that people care - I am well aware of that. I am not running away and threatening goodbye for attention - I truly have been struggling with this place.

Nothemama - pm creates the same frustration - almost never loads. Sometimes, if I'm lucky and leave it for about an hour.

No defrag or any other cleaning is required on my pc! Actually - I got to post all my (lengthy) replies on my my thread over at Caregivers and I also got to this thread without too much trouble so that "says" to me that the problem is simply not mine.

I don't want to leave. I love it here. You people are another family to me.

But if rage sets in - I have to protect myself.

If the posting is happening right now - I need to take advantage.