i thought that i was getting better. i thought that i should be happy that depression is leaving me. But now i realize that even though depression is that nagging horrible person always whispering words into your ear, i miss it. it's so selfish of me. i want to cry. i want to hurt. but i want to be normal. im crying for the first time in weeks. im depresses again but i still dont know how to feel. smile or frown.