My birthday is in a few days and no matter how hard I try to forget about it and maintain life as usual, the uncomfortable feelings, depression, and sadness creep in....even when I'm asleep.

Another year older and another year spent alone with no personal life. I'm working again but am always low on money and sometimes worry I will not have enough for the next week. I spend all my time focused in on work which helps me bury all those feelings I have of sadness and loneliness but does nothing to make my personal life better.

I see all the things I've lost over the years due to mental illness that I will never have again and the loss is overwhelming. I have no friends and my family doesn't understand. I missed seeing my therapist this week due to illness and feel like I have to talk to someone but have no one to talk to.

I wish people could see the tremendous pain and sadness I hold within me--even after years of therapy it is still there.