I don't have any close friends who lives close by to me. It's very hard for me to find any friends in my area. Before I lived in Maryland and I had a lot of lovely friends there and than I moved and since than I haven't made any friends. Everything has changed, I simply don't know anyone in my area and I'm depressed cause of this. That's not all though: I'm scared to make friends cause I'm afraid they won't like me or nervous that they'll pick on me... or bully me. All my life I've been bullied, picked on or betrayed in the end. Now it's extremely hard for me to trust people, I really want friends but my fear is controlling my life. All the friends I do have are online and I know not many of them will stick around and always be by my side. This only depresses me more...