Hi bronzeowl. I do hope things get better for you in life, and all else you have going on. Something I found that helped me loads was a book. When I was trying to understand fitting in and the concept of trying to grow and learn, this book helped me loads. The book never did sort out problems or change what was happening in life. It just helped me deal with stuff better. The book is Angel at my table - Janet Frame. (its an auto biography. 3 books in 1 book)
Maybe if you have time give it a try. Janet was/is a rock to my sanity.
g/l bronzeowl.
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The opposite of a correct statement is a false statement .
But the opposite of profound truth maybe another profound truth.
(Niels Bohr) Nobel Prize Winner for Physics.
The universe started with an 'E'.
The universe will end with a 'K'.
(lyrics Acid House)
Its the truth even if it did not happen.
(Ken Kesey) One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest.Real science can be far stranger than science fiction and much more satisfying.