Wow. I must have been missing out on some of your posts. I didn't know your situation was so bad. I just want to say this and I hope you can trust me on it even though I'm just someone on an Internet forum: your reality isn't different from everyone else's, well I mean it is unique like everyone else's of course, but you are right in everything you say. Life coaching is just some phrase, the way this relationship seems to work for you is as a therapeutic relationship and this is exactly why therapy # friendship. Therapy can never be casual even if there may be a lot of seemingly casual moments in some cases. It's normal that this person will have a lot of influence on you and it's never okay for a professional to be in such a helping position unaware of this fact. Sorry if I seem to be harsh. I really think that you or any client who puts their trust in any sort of therapist deserve and need much more reliability, continuity and stability than this. Would it be an option for you to go see another therapist to help you deal with these things you're going through? I see it as worrisome that your LCM even thinks this CAN be casual. I'm very proud of you for standing up for yourself and I hope you receive better, proper therapy in the future, from her or from someone else. I'm aware how hard it is to even consider seeing someone else instead, I know the emotional bond between the two of you is very strong, and at the same time I know you deserve better sessions that you can rely on and trust will happen. I wish you the best!