I can't believe how fast the days are going by at the moment. It feels like the day doesn't have enough hours any more.
I am okay today but I am very tired. I had something on my mind all night. I know my therapist cancelled a couple of her clients yesterday because she had a very tough day the day before and closed her practice early, but she did come and see me for more than two hours. It makes me feel bad for the other clients who without a doubt need her too and were probably not happy she cancelled. She works with a lot of trauma patients because that is her specialty. So most of her clients aren't there for "light" stuff.
But I also of course like when she is with me, so somehow I feel torn today.

Anyway below is my email for Day #3 for today.

"Day #3

it's going to be a short one today, I haven't slept much and feel very tired.

So I thought about what I would write today because I don't want to whine about how horrible I feel or how afraid I am today.
So I thought this would be a good time to share some of my secrets with you. Now is a really good time for that I think

So you know my secret ingredient in my spaghetti sauce you always wanted to know?
It's two pieces of dark chocolate.
(Oh, and the secret ingredient in my peanut sauce, that makes it so creamy - is Coca Cola)

The biggest lie I ever told was that I didn't break our stove and made the plate split in half, when I did it by forgetting a pot on the stove that became so hot and black and completely ruined. I hid the pot behind the sink.

My guilty pleasure are the TV series "7th Heaven" and "The Andy Griffith Show". I would have been madly in love with Sheriff Taylor had I lived in the 50s and 60s.

The song I wrote "You" - I stole a bit of the melody from a German pop song.

I really don't like olives but I will eat them because people think they are serving me something special.

As a child I used to eat bugs that were shiny.

Well, these are a few of my secrets.

With love,
Amelia"