growlithing, it sounds like the boundaries in this relationship with your life coach are getting pretty confused. you call her "life coach mom" and "T". she's just your life coach. i know you don't want to hear that but blurring all these boundaries and having her try to fill all these different roles (mom, T, and friend) sound like they are messing with your head. i hope you can get this back to a professional relationship with proper boundaries within her role as a life coach. the boundaries are to keep you safe and secure and she just doesn't have the training to be a substitute T. because of this it doesn't sound like you are emotionally safe or secure right now.