These are the very issues why you should seek out a new T, if only short term for now. I think a t will help you sort through your confusion regarding LCM. I think what you wrote to her was great and totally appropriate. Your expectations have become what they are because LCM never put any boundaries into place. Even friends and family menbers need to have boundaries- they are necessary in any healthy relationship. LCM has created a relationship with unreasonable expectations and is finding that she can't (or won't) adhere to them. I know this isn't what you want to hear although I think somewhere deep inside you may know this. It's not because she doesn't care. It's because this kind of open ended, available at anytime, type of relationship is not realistic. A t should try to model healthy relationships for you. Instead, she is actually modeling a very unhealthy relationship and as you are starting to see, this is not going to help you in your real life. You are a young woman with much to offer. A Ts job is to help you see this yourself and teach you skills so you can relate to others outside of therapy without so much fear. To help you build a more satisfying life for yourself with your family and peers. If LCM were really capable of helping you, she would have gotten a real T involved by now. I'm sorry, but I think she is doing a lot of harm by taking on so much of your care when she isn't qualified to do so.