*Sigh*

Here we go again. That damned anxiety about going out for what should be a fun time with some folks I haven't seen in awhile and some folks I have. I go out so rarely these days. Too many other things keeping me busy most times. Oh who the hell am I kidding??? The biggest thing keeping me home is my anxiety. It freakin sucks big time.

A huge part of me wants to go out, socialize, enjoy dinner and a drink or two, maybe even get up and dance...ummmm no....scratch the dancing part....LOL. But you get my drift....I really WANT to see these folks and have a good time, but dammit....the other part of me is saying..NO, stay home and veg out. *sigh*

I hate this internal battle