I am no expert, but the first thing that came to my mind when reading your post was to find a new doctor. " I am told by my psychiatrist I am fighting the system" Who's system? What system do they refer to? Maybe your system is better than your doctor's. Until recently, I was labeled as not wanting to get better. I never knew how to get better until now. If you were feeling better on certain meds, request that you go back on them. Then do some research on doctors that won't make you feel bad.

Just my thoughts.

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