I sometimes invent a "new" me....right now I am trying using essential oils and new hobbies like growing things and learning and researching information about things I am currently interested in. In the past, I also used journaling which allowed me to connect to that part of me that I had hidden even from myself. It doesn't have to be anything fancy. Grab a scrap piece of paper and just write about what you know. For example:

Today, I know these things:

The sun is shining and I don't really care. I used to care but not today.
Its warm outside and that makes me a little happy.
I opened the windows and the fresh air felt good in my lungs.
I am reading a good book which keeps my mind occupied for at least a few moments.
I made yummy coffee and I appreciate that.
I am not ashamed that something as simple as coffee brightens my day.

Today I will:
Allow myself to drink coffee and be happy for it.
Breathe fresh air and be happy I can breathe it.
Read a good book and appreciate that I know how to read.
Allow myself sadness if I need to.
Not be ashamed of my sadness.

Just a little insight.....

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