I know this is the weekend, and not many people are on, but I need someone to understand. My wife doesn't, my therapist is on vacation. Why does this happen. I'm lost I don't know what to do. I'm afraid my wife is turning into my mother she said the same thing my mother says "no that didn't happen". I know it ****ing happened why do you keep saying it didn't? I'm not ****ing crazy. I don't know what to do. I want to crawl into a corner and rock and pull my hair out at the temples. I want the thoughts to stop. I can't do this. I need out. What if there is no help for me? What if there isn't anything anyone can do? What if this is all my life will ever be? Distrust and lies. I tell my wife I'm fine and nothing is wrong. I can't tell her the truth. She wouldn't believe me anyway. I can't make the thoughts stop and I'm feeling desperate. I don't know what to do. I'm lost.... help!??

Tig