Hi ManicFemale, I am sorry to hear that you're going through such a tough time battling OCD. It's quite a struggle, I know how difficult it is to fight OCD through first-hand experience. What I find helps though is by taking a walk on the beach (well I live in The Bahamas so I have easy access to a beach but you get my point) or just appreciating nature for its beauty. I am on Prozac and that has worked miracles for me though, so that has taken off alot of the burden aswell. Anyways I hope you feel better soon.