I figured it could be a forever thing. Trauma affects the brain and how it builds I guess - esp if it is childhood trauma.
It seems frustrating to me, if somethings wrong fix it, thats how I see most things. But this is one thing that you cant just "fix" that might/will affect the rest of your life. Its also random - sitting there talking to people and then bang! A slap across your face of feelings and memories.
It also seems like there is no medication as such to actually do anything for PTSD except medicate the issues that spring from it such as depression and anxiety.
Ah I think Im just mad and frustrated that it cant just be 'fixed' and that its a long long term progress of working through it.

Thank you for all your wonderful and supportive comments!!