I felt the maybe hidden message in what you said was that you "should" feel happy because your life is going well. Sort of accusing yourself of not being a good person because instead of being happy in response to the good things in your life, you feel sad and down.

All I can say is that is how I feel a lot of the times, I go around and say to myself 'well at least I don't have cancer' or 'people have things so much worse than me, what is my problem?' and I guess that's probably not helping me get any better.

I am seriously thinking about getting a dog once I get settled in a new place to live (lost my home due to breaking up with fiancee). I am thinking the unconditional love and companionship, plus the ability to have the warmth of snuggling with a dog, will help me a lot. I would say my loneliness is the severest part of my depression, followed by the hopelessness. And then follows the blaming game! Don't know if that is helpful - hope you are feeling a little better. Best wishes, Donna