This is a message to me if my t terminates. Been seeing her for 7 yrs. I think there's been a severe rupture but she is not answering my text or email for over a week now. Our appt is next week. I have a strong feeling she will terminate and refer.

I'm pretty sure it's over. I said too much, needed too much. I proved myself right. Politely take the referrals, throwing them away in the stairwell and thank her. U tell her u want to go at it alone for a while. U politely decline her offer to communicate with another t. U even can ask to be excused early if u must. Then u walk away. U are steady and strong. U get in ur car and then decide ur next move. But u never ever make contact again. You are defeated. You are broken. You hide away and never try to explain again. Perhaps u go off your meds so u don't have to face your psychiatrist. You NEVER have faith in another human being again. After a while, if it's just too much, you set a date and make your plans, never saying a word. So quickly, so quietly- they will never know u have gone. You exit. Then the shame fear and hurt will cease, if only for a moment until u are thrown into the next incarnation. It's ok to go home now. I've got you. By the way, I'm so sorry.

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