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Old Apr 27, 2014, 03:16 AM
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I've been gone from here for a long time, but the depression came back this winter and with the craving to SI. I really need somewhere to talk about it so here I am again.

It has literally been years since I did it. I even went nearly a year without craving it! As the depression crept back into my life the cravings and imagining SI came back. I really don't want to slip but the struggle seems harder all the time. I even dream about it.

I was doing so well I told my family about it. I really wanted to have as many barriers to slipping again as possible. Now it feels like all the more pressure I am carrying. I want to. . . I don't want to . . . I can feel myself doing it. . . I feel I am making myself nuts.
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