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Apr 27, 2014, 06:56 AM
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Member Since: Mar 2014
Location: USA
Posts: 611
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"Day #4
It's Sunday. It's 7:30 am and I am sitting outside in the fresh morning air and I am watching two cardinals on the bird feeder.
So I am wondering what to write today. Yesterday, my therapist came to see me for an hour or so. We sat outside an chatted and I wasn't feeling very well. I had struggled all day with an overwhelming exhaustion and tiredness. She told me that it's my body trying to conserve energy and it's best not to fight it. She held me in her arms for a while and I fell asleep to her heartbeat. I know, I know.. this sounds weird -after all she is my therapist. But she is also the one who accompanies me on this journey in a very intimate way. And I guess by intimate, I mean that this journey by nature is a very intimate one. She sees me at my weakest, at my most fearful, my most vulnerable - whereas with almost everyone else I keep up a very brave face. So in the end it wasn't weird at all, but very peaceful and calming.
She asked me to tell her 5 things I am most grateful for in my life. So I thought I share these with you today:
1. My absolutely wonderful and beautiful sisters and brothers who loved me no matter what, without any reservation and condition. They taught me how to love and how to care for people.
2. The lady who made sure I didn't starve to death when I was 7 years old, by feeding me in the middle of the night.
3. To be able to get a good education which led to some awesome jobs in which I met great people, traveled the world and was able to give back by giving myself completely.
4. That very special man that captured my heart so completely and who loved me so completely, accepted me so completely. He left this world way too soon but every second with him was one that I count as the best of my life.
5. Finding faith. (This should probably be #1 as it is the best thing that ever happened to me.)
I could make this list longer, much longer in fact. But I guess these are the 5 most important things.
Oh by the way, to the lady who asked me why her peanut sauce didn't become creamy... you have to heat it up 
With love,
Amelia"
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*** Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.***
Mahatma Ghandi
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