you ARE important i'm like you, i was (and still am) a dependant back when i first started going for treatment. i went through it alone.. my country does not have insurance thing though; for public healthcare, they offered subsidies to all citizens. but i remember feeling alone, and going in secrecy made me feel more alone.

really hoping you'll get the help you need you're thinking of getting treatment, and that's a good thing! i applaud you for your bravery. hope things go well with your mom