"My mind is troubled like a fountain stirred, And I myself see not the bottom of it" William Shakespeare.

"We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when adults are afraid of the light." PLATO

"If you cannot find the truth right where you are, where do you expect to find it?" Dogen Zenji

These all hit home for me and I am sure many of you.

When I was in chat last evening I left really fast. I appologize for this. I hope that nobody left because of my blubbering. I could not talk anymore at that time; I could barely read the screen. The tears would not stop. I am truly amazed at how caring all of you are. I have no friends here; aquaintences; but not good friends. I am really having a hard time coping and am very confused about next week with my doctor. I have a tendancy of shoving my feelings so deep that I have difficulties bringing them out. Its been okay here because I dont have to look at someone in the face; I am ashamed of who I have become. I adore my doctor as he has helped with many things already; I have never seen a doctor actually turn away from tears in my life until I met him. I know he has a hard time with these issues; especially when we are discussing my kids. He is amazing; I dont want him to be disappointed with all of the assistance he has given to us; even with the legal end. He has put forth a lot of energy to assist in removing my kids from their dads. Unfortunetly, we were not successful. I know I am just babbling; I cant sleep and I really need to talk. Well who knows what may come. If I am not around in the next couple of days, I could not get on the computer as I am taking my kids to their grandparents for a week. I am staying a couple of days but will be home for Tuesday.
Thanks and take care everyone.
Elizabeth