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Originally Posted by AllyIsHopeful
I think it is time to force myself to attend NA meetings...or at least one meeting to give it a try. There are many to choose from that are not too far away, but I'm afraid to go. Most of the people already know each other and I'll just be the outsider.
I should have started going a long time ago but I don't think I was ever really ready to get help. I liked the feeling of being numb and happy, like nothing really mattered. I still like the feeling but I know this isn't healthy and I am so serious about snapping out of my depression and improving my well-being the right way.
I'm just so scared and nervous. And I guess part of me knows once I start going- that's it. The addiction really does have to end.
Why is this so hard?  I've already relapsed 4 times within 2 years. I feel like this will never end.
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I went this route and it changed my life, although I no longer do anonymous meetings, I wouldn't tell you they are a bad idea if you're really struggling to stop. Depending on where you live, you may want to try AA for a better quality meeting even if your substance of choice isn't booze. Yes, some pure boozers may balk at you, but most won't and most people in AA now aren't pure boozers. They say the key is to go every day for 90 days. If you think about it, this is a technique to continue reinforcing the reasons not to use and supporting your non-use... anyways I do agree that early on attending as frequently as possible while working on building a new friend base early on is a great idea.
Everyone relapses, but the ones that are successful just never give up trying. I tried to quit smoking something like 30 times before it stuck. I've quit (and re-started) several addictions, this might seem weird and it might just be stupid on my part, but I really feel like when you're coming off something, being physically active like doing a really long hike and sweating and drinking lots of water, and even going into a steam room or a sauna or swimming in a pool can help you "get it out" quicker. Anyways, it might just be in my mind, LOL, but I swear I feel like that really helps and also helps you to sleep that night when you're really craving if you exhaust yourself enough. Just my little trick

. Most things will clear your system physically in a few days, then its the psychological addiction.