T, why can't I, now that I need to, reach out to you? I don't know why I am so hesitant when you made it abundantly clear that there is no situation that I can't reach out to you for? I need you, why don't I want to admit this to myself?? I wish right now you would send one of your attuned text messages so that I don't have to be the one to make the first step here. A