(((((((Jeter))))))))) I am so sorry for what you are going through. I totally understand. I am bulimic and struggling with it big time. It is hard to suggest to you what you could possibly do as my illness is very out-of-control. Is your family not supportive in this matter? Your are right when you say its so hard to stop. Its not that easy. Do you see anyone for this? May I suggest that you seek professional advice. This disorder is very dangerous. I effected my liver about a year ago; the hospital put me on eating restriction; which means that when ever I ate I had to sit with the staff during my meals and two hours after. If I would have continued to do what I was, my liver was going to shut down. Please get help; and I apologize for making suggestions when I am doing the same again. But I know I need help; which I am struggling with. I just want you to know how serious and dangerous this disorder really is. It sounds like it has taken over your life and that makes it so tough. My thoughts and prayers are with you; please get well.
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