I'm sure others have experienced this pattern - make friends, get depressed, isolate, never talk to anyone, lose friends.

My friend cycle is right now compounded by the fact that the people I was closest to either don't live in my city for the summer or at all any more.

When I'm not depressed and isolating, I seem to do all the chasing. And then when someone finally initiates contact instead of waiting for me to do it, I'm either full of depression or anxiety and I can't do it.

I haven't really talked to my friends in months. Of the ones who still live in this city, one is no longer answering my texts, and the other is leaving on Thursday. She invited me to a dinner tonight with a bunch of people but I can't go. I texted her to ask if I could come by another time and drop off something I made for her but she's not answering. She's probably busy organizing dinner tonight though.

So I've basically lost or am about to lose all of my friends and I have no idea what to do. Even when I have them, I can't seem to manage friendships.