perhaps this is all about feeling different??? am I outing out old feelings???? do I put myself in a "group/sect/organisation to work out these feelings off difference???? is my anger "rage" from a time long ago when I was different????? when put into a different familys home??????? yes maybe! a power struggle? what people see as a natural difference .. I see as a battle for my existence!! not to be swallowed up by something that isn't mine???????