I don't think my wife understands how bad things are in my head. I told her i'm scared of whats in my head and she says no matter what we'll face it together and continued playing her video game. I can't afford to go to the dr if they want to see me. I'm broke till friday. I can't go inpatient. I'm the only one working. Its an hour and a half past my bedtime and i'm not tired. My anxiety is through the roof and i'm crying. Escape is what I need.

Tig