I know I should not wish this, but I been kind of in between hypo and a bit depressed at times , then baseline, then irritable, angry, edgy omg.
when I was manic, I was on top of the world, everything was perfect and coloful, I could achieve anything, I was the best, my self esteem exceeded 100 percent, intimacy was superb, of course it might not have been with h. Btw, I was off meds and on different ones, I remember only taking ad , I guess I self induced it, along with some stressors.