You seem to have lots of negative energy focused on what has happened and what you can't really control. Turn that into something you can take hold of. like school and a goal of something. Put that energy taking up good time of yours towards something rewarding. Volunteer at a hospital to see again if you want to persue your once dream of doctoring. Try to find a goal and don't worry about the people that you can or can't trust. Believe me they might come and go through your life. I know it is not a happy thought but if you lived worrying about this you would miss out on a lot of good people. -Sesquix