ok this is my second post and I still don't know what I am doing. Posting or even thinking about it gets me anxious and there is a tight ball in my chest. If anyone could tell me the best way to do this or is willing to "hold my hand" through it I would be very grateful. I am safe right now and have support from my family but the only person I can really talk to is my therapist; my wife starts to cry and I feel guilty and worse. I have a friend that I make sure I call him every day. We set a time so at least in my mind I have a commitment to make and I keep going. he is great but doesn't understand what I am going through and I don't wish to burden him more. Thank you for reading.