How do you know?

I've had a few episodes where I felt...not quite myself. Family said I was off my rockers (or close). When I went on meds, I could tell I was better when I could look back at the episode and saw it through their eyes. Almost...dispassionately? I wasn't triggered into being scared, and it seemed ludicrous that I could be. Plus, ones closest to me said I sounded less rambling....? And I felt ...good. That's how I know when I've turned the corner. Part of me still feels injured, but it's like by brain feels sprained, not broken. It's useable, and it feels good. For me, If I have to ask if I'm better, I'm not.