I've been going to AA meetings for just over a month now which is a huge positive step for me. I have used alcohol to cope with feelings and denial from sexual assault. Today I was looking forward to getting my 30 day chip.

Then, the last share before handing out chips was a visitor who started talking about his sexual additions, getting hard ons, masturbating, etc. I was one of only two women in the room and he actually said that he probably shouldn't talk about this in mixed company but the men in the room would understand him.

I feel angry and triggered by this. I felt incredibly uncomfortable and helpless. I know a large part of this is because of my history but I also think it was inappropriate for him to talk about this because it is AA not Sex Anonymous. I'm also mad that it happened right before the chips were handed out because I feel he robbed me of some enjoyment of that.