I've just had enough - I hate my new job - I feel so out of place here and no-one likes me or undestands why I have been brought in. I am angry with my oldest friend because she has abandoned me and it makes me feel worthless - she introduced me to my T - who also doesn't support me (more useless feelings). My H treats me like ***** and so do my kids. I am just a waste of space. I wish I had the courage to run away from it all. Or at least make some changes. But I am pathetic. I hate feeling this way - I am pushing people away because I am no longer positive. I cant keep wearing the mask. I have worn the mask for so long but I want to be real now. I think I am going to do something to show everyone how I am really feeling. But nobody cares anyway! They just think I am making a fuss over nothing and should be grateful for what I have. I am so confused.