The thing about this is, it's difficult to explain anyone.

I've always been prone to depression. This time it's PTSD and addiction as well. I'm a national athlete doing 400m. I competed internationally and was once a star in my community community. The reason I needed to tell that, is because ever since my motorcycle accident, I couldn't train, not walk (it's been 6 months now). I will be able to walk properly again (someday).

I study psychology through an online university (unisa). So being alone is quite easy. I study alone at home and am not forced to be out a lot.

To be able to cope with the legs' pain need strong pain medication. This medication, as some of you might recognise, is the se as House MD's vicadin (excuse spelling). Highly addictive and VERY difficult to let go of.

Every day I wake up, trying to cope without it. The main I can most days handle, but the heat flashes and the feeling that you're going to die is terrible, terrible, terrible. Not training is even worse. I feel very bad about myself and not I mention the not being able to practice my sport- which was my life for many years.

So I'm stuck with these problems and don't feel like studying nor socialising. It's affecting my confidence and self- worth. It sounds easy to solve, but it is sooo hard!

Needed to get that off my chest.



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