Maybe you dont believe that you are worth love, care, commitment, and compassion? You dont think you deserve it or you think that someone who gives you those things will want something back for it -- some obligation that you do not want to give or feel they are trying to get to you some how.

I am sorry you are going through this.

I would say that you do need to get to the bottom of these feelings. Get yourself a piece of paper and sit there and ask yourself 'what am I afraid of?' then 'why?' -- Write down the answers and then keep asking yourself why and write those answers down too. It is kind of how kids keep asking why why why -- keep asking yourself why you feel afraid and what the worst thing is that could happen if you accepted that love, care and compassion from someone else.

Good luck. This is a tough one