When people respond to me with sympathy or kindness, I feel like I've somehow manipulated them into being that way. It's like I don't actually deserve it. If only they'd realize what they were doing, they would take it back.

I guess it takes a long time to get to the point where I can feel worthy. My T says that you learn by experiencing. Over time, receiving understanding and kindness will feel normal or something. Here's to hoping!