Hi pacots. I'm sorry you're hurting. I'm in a deep, dark depression too, which started last August. I was inpatient because of suicidal ideation about 6 weeks ago (I think). Unfortunately, it did not help my depression whatsoever. It was just a place to stay safe. If you feel hospitalization helped you last time, I would say give it another whirl. Regardless, good luck with whatever you decide to do, and keep posting.