I've googled mine and notice I've been doing so more often lately....I think I do it when I'm feeling more disconnected from him and when I'm starting to get all panicky and untrusting.....I've never told him and wouldn't want to do so. I feel sad when I google him too....I think because it's hollow and doesn't help me connect really, like I'm hoping for....I don't feel too guilty though because I believe it's common for clients to do so.

Anyone who has had a discussion with their T about it - I totally respect! I don't think I could do that one /: