Without much of preamble, last night I ended up going to emerg and got 5 stitches for a cut.

As I woke up this morning I could feel the pain from the incision and could feel the bruises surrounding the stitches.

YET, here I lay wanting more. Wanting to do another nice clean slice next to the one I did yesterday so that I can go back and re-live the events from yesterday????? What the hell is wrong with me! Yesterday was horrible! I waited 5 hours just to be seen! I have too much to do and certainly don't have extra time to waste at the ER.

However, here I fight the urges to SI again.

I'm going to leave my house and go try and do some work at a coffee shop in an attempt to distract myself long enough that these feelings will pass.

Sigh.