I know dozens of folks here have googled their therapists based on reading previous threads about this. In the social media age, I can only imagine it's fairly common.

I have looked up my therapist online and found information including a facebook page, LinkedIn page, professional affiliation info, even phone and address, she had a lot online, some she knew about, some she may not have realized.

I told her all about it. See... I don't think the issue is knowing "too much": I think it's what we do with what we know. Would I ever use information on her in a harmful way? Absolutely never.

It wasn't my subconscious that pushed me to look her up, I was pretty well aware that I did it to satisfy my curiosity and to help confirm she was a safe, consistent person, as well as to feel more connected to her between sessions. I think that type of searching can also help equalize a sense of imbalance that occurs when we confide all our most intimate issues to someone without much (if any) reciprocation, so it's a natural and understandable impulse.

Her reaction was largely acceptance and reassurance with a little bit of startled, as she did not, I don't think, realize how much of her info was online. She basically told me that she trusted me completely, wasn't completely used to info online, and that she understood why I would be vetting her by checking out her info online.

So, in other words, I was nervous about it a bit, but it resolved easily. A while afterward, she even gave me access to a blog she writes, as she thought it would be comforting.

I hope at some point you won't feel as scared of yourself, scared that your impulses are so awful that you can't tell your therapist about them. I don't believe that at all. Humans are curious: I think it's one of our most wonderful, successful traits.