you can afford to take some time off of work.

(assuming you are from USA) - the Federal Medical Leave Act (FMLA) requires an employer to give you up to 12 weeks off for a 'serious medical condition' for either you or a spouse or a parent or a child.

Clearly suicidal concerns fall under this (I am using FMLA to attend weekly therapy).

In my case my employer pays me while I am off on FMLA - but not all employers have to (the law does not require it).

Either way - my point is you can get help and not lose your job. In fact, using FMLA may position you in a better place that the employer would not dare fire you for fear of you suing them (not that I am pushing for that).

Gods blessings to you.