Hi there,

i've just a few sessions left of my course.
It's been incredibly helpful for my OCD, and i've made a lot of progress.

But, the problem is it was targeting my OCD only..
As that was identified as the condition worst effecting me at the time.

I've already had an entire course aimed at my BDD several years back.
But it wasn't cured - it made it infinitely better, but not fixed..

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and now i'm about to be out of therapy, i don't know what i'm going to do..
At least now i don't hate myself; mentally,, - i've realised i'm not the evil being i thought i was for so long..

But now i'm left, still in a place where i can't take part in life.
As i am so loathsome of my Physical self.

If i were to get more therapy for my BDD it would be in about 5~months from now.
And i'm scared at the predicament of being adrift with my BDD as bad as it is for that length of time.
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However i am very sure that i have a genuine physical health issue,, but the doctors all say they can't see it… i'm being referred to a specialist/physician but i believe it's the wrong specialist because the doctors didn't see what i am concerned about.
They just believe i have IBS, when i believe i have lymphedema.

I hate this so much.. i'm constantly preoccupied by this swelling (up to 7 hours a day)...
i don't know whether i need further therapy… or to see physicians…
I just want to be better.

Circles